Sunday, March 18, 2007
i was getting good at lying to myself.
but i think its enough.
besides, u told me not to think about unnecessary stuff coz i'll make it even harder for myself.
well now, im making things easier for myself.
hope i'll forget US soon.
but i think its enough.
besides, u told me not to think about unnecessary stuff coz i'll make it even harder for myself.
well now, im making things easier for myself.
hope i'll forget US soon.
++ posted by Hans @ 10:45 pm |
Friday, March 16, 2007
i had the best sleep in a long time.
cant recall the last time i had sleep for 4 hours straight without any interruption.
but i cant figure out why i woke up at 4+ in the morning though.
i slept again and woke up at 7.
and well, here i am.
not that i had enough sleep.
its just that if i had continued my slumber, i'd prolly miss friday prayers.
today, i plan to climb in school before prayers.
i intend to follow my parents to work in the car and alight with my mom at her workplace at tanjong pagar and take the MRT to school.
and im gonna climb until around 1pm.
haii.
stupid ITP.
seriously.
if it wasnt for this stupid attachment, i would have been training hard for boulderactive almost everyday.
and i wouldnt have needed to borrow time like this for the sake of climbg.
i dont wanna join open and look miserable.
i wanna fight for open finals.
and ITP.. for the past 3 days, its been super super slack.
i barely served any customer.
time passed by quite quickly except for yesterday.
coz many of them were on leave and it was damn boring.
damn it.
ive got exactly 4 weeks left of this damned attachment.
but i know i can do it.
and i can do it too without u.
but i fucking miss u laaa.
and theres no damn thing i can do abt it.
not much anyway..
cant recall the last time i had sleep for 4 hours straight without any interruption.
but i cant figure out why i woke up at 4+ in the morning though.
i slept again and woke up at 7.
and well, here i am.
not that i had enough sleep.
its just that if i had continued my slumber, i'd prolly miss friday prayers.
today, i plan to climb in school before prayers.
i intend to follow my parents to work in the car and alight with my mom at her workplace at tanjong pagar and take the MRT to school.
and im gonna climb until around 1pm.
haii.
stupid ITP.
seriously.
if it wasnt for this stupid attachment, i would have been training hard for boulderactive almost everyday.
and i wouldnt have needed to borrow time like this for the sake of climbg.
i dont wanna join open and look miserable.
i wanna fight for open finals.
and ITP.. for the past 3 days, its been super super slack.
i barely served any customer.
time passed by quite quickly except for yesterday.
coz many of them were on leave and it was damn boring.
damn it.
ive got exactly 4 weeks left of this damned attachment.
but i know i can do it.
and i can do it too without u.
but i fucking miss u laaa.
and theres no damn thing i can do abt it.
not much anyway..
++ posted by Hans @ 7:22 am |
Thursday, March 15, 2007
9 months was all it was.
going back would mean all the hurt would be for nothing.
i have to get through this.
love.
it is a thing not of the mind but of the heart.
a feeling only felt.
it doesnt make sense most of the time.
but only two equivalent souls can make sense out of it.
going back would mean all the hurt would be for nothing.
i have to get through this.
love.
it is a thing not of the mind but of the heart.
a feeling only felt.
it doesnt make sense most of the time.
but only two equivalent souls can make sense out of it.
++ posted by Hans @ 1:40 am |
Sunday, March 11, 2007
a guy offered me a packet of cigarettes.
i dont know why but for a split second i was contemplating whether to take it.
it should have been an easy decision.
work hasnt been hectic.
its just been long and fucking boring.
most of the time when im at home i'd be zombified.
today is a little bit of an exception.
had the sudden urge to blog.
but have nothing to blog about actually.
just wanna complain more about the damn ITP slash slavery.
i'd rather go to school everyday from 8 to 5 to learn a new module or something.
thankfully, im on leave tomorrow.
then after that 6 days of fucking torture again.
it better not get to 7 days.
i need sleep.
dreading work later.
zzzz.
i dont know why but for a split second i was contemplating whether to take it.
it should have been an easy decision.
work hasnt been hectic.
its just been long and fucking boring.
most of the time when im at home i'd be zombified.
today is a little bit of an exception.
had the sudden urge to blog.
but have nothing to blog about actually.
just wanna complain more about the damn ITP slash slavery.
i'd rather go to school everyday from 8 to 5 to learn a new module or something.
thankfully, im on leave tomorrow.
then after that 6 days of fucking torture again.
it better not get to 7 days.
i need sleep.
dreading work later.
zzzz.
++ posted by Hans @ 7:06 am |
Thursday, March 01, 2007
sold a bloody gps yesterday.
like finally.
but the joy of selling that thing that costs close to a thousand bucks didnt last long.
not when i have so much on my mind.
not really that much.
but enough.
been over a week.
any longer, u have to peel me urself.
and watch me rot.
whatever that means.
im THIS close to unleashing my wrath and cause wanton destruction.
but i dont wanna cause a commotion.
been holding it back and slowly screwing up my brain.
it will show up eventually; the depression.
this post has been crap.
i'd been wanting to jump down from the 3rd storey to see whether i can land proper.
i never really had the balls to.
but now i feel like, why not?
its only a bit higher than the 2nd storey and i'd made the jump from the 2nd storey.
gosh.
another paragraph of crap.
i cant make up anything logical these days.
and blogging just to satisfy the devil.
'i made a deal with the devil.' - johnny blaze.
FUCK.
bullshit. bullshit. bullshit.
enough la sia.
like finally.
but the joy of selling that thing that costs close to a thousand bucks didnt last long.
not when i have so much on my mind.
not really that much.
but enough.
been over a week.
any longer, u have to peel me urself.
and watch me rot.
whatever that means.
im THIS close to unleashing my wrath and cause wanton destruction.
but i dont wanna cause a commotion.
been holding it back and slowly screwing up my brain.
it will show up eventually; the depression.
this post has been crap.
i'd been wanting to jump down from the 3rd storey to see whether i can land proper.
i never really had the balls to.
but now i feel like, why not?
its only a bit higher than the 2nd storey and i'd made the jump from the 2nd storey.
gosh.
another paragraph of crap.
i cant make up anything logical these days.
and blogging just to satisfy the devil.
'i made a deal with the devil.' - johnny blaze.
FUCK.
bullshit. bullshit. bullshit.
enough la sia.
++ posted by Hans @ 10:14 am |
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