why do i feel useless?
wrong.
why must i feel useless?
when god gave me a good brain
and good physique?
no one can deny that i am
quite clever.
if i'm not, then how did i manage
to get into the best class??
neither can anyone deny that
i'm not a bad athlete.
i'm not boasting.
i'm just trying to find answers.

god let me be with such good
friends.
good parents, siblings, relatives.
sufficient food and money.
but what is it that i want so much
that make me feel like i am so
useless when i can do things
many cant and have a
good-enough life?
why is it so hard to appreciate
life?
what is so irresistable that i
want it so badly?
maybe not so badly but bad
enough to make me thing about
it so much.

man.
this is going nowhere.
no matter how much i ask;
no matter how optimistic
i try to be, i'll still be
this way.
down. down. and down.
of course i'll be okay tomorrow
but it will come back
wont it?

haizz.
99 questions, not even one is
answered.
questions about it.
and then, after thinking
and asking questions about
it, i will think of what is...
you know what??
forget it.
stupid spell.
sleep is my only cure.

another problem though.
i cant sleep...

0 Comments:

Post a Comment

---