taking back what i said


i want to take my words back--


wht u said tht time made me angry. u made an assumption tht is way out of reality. i noe its ur opinion but i think such opinions r best to b kept to urself.if u wna assume tht i lyk someone else as well, at least say someone more 'realistic'. saying her is like saying tht u lyk ur own brother. come on. i thot u knew better. this small thing has made me avoid u till now. n our friendship has nt been tht good even b4 tht. u know it too rite? admit it. we juz cant go on lyk dis. thrs no use having such things whn u dun rly appreciate thm. rmb saying tht u wnted to back out? well, u changed ur mind thn. but now, i think we shld back out. we treat each other like anyone else n tht we dun rly get along tht well. i admit tht i get very irritated by ur sarcasm n all. we shld juz concentrate on lessons in cls n nt disturb each other. so... later.. fren.


well, it was quite old.
around 2 months old.
i thought being just friends would be good.
but it was worse; as if we dont know each other.
dont talk, dont make eye contact.
sad case.
i tried writing a letter.
since we couldnt talk.
i tried chatting online.
but you went offline everytime a 'hie' from me came to you.
i dont know whether it was intentional or you really were disconnected but i dont really care anymore.
i guess you just dont want to fix our friendship and that you want us to graduate like this.
if its fine with you, its fine with me.
hope we dont meet again.
hope we dont hear one another.
hope we dont even hear about one another.
hope we replace each other with another.
hope we just forget each other.


im taking one last step.
to make me work.
that is to lock my computer.
maybe by dismantling it.
this is my last resort.
the computer is definitely the one that is obstructing me from my studies.
not 'going out' since i dont even go to school for lessons.
if i were to fail once more,
then i can be labelled as a failure.
condemned.
because the computer is the only think obstructing.
if i am wrong, then it is me.


hope i will succeed.
wish me luck peeps.
i wanna graduate and go for the graduation night and really deserve it.
i wanna go to a good Junior College.
and i wanna get a good L1R5.
better than my preliminary round and my previous aggregates.
i aim to get 16 for L1R5.
hardly possible.
but nothing is impossible.
impossible is nothing.


i am sponsored by adidas.
and so, im going to adopt 'impossible is nothing' for this occasion.
and push away mine.
'let nature take its course' and 'love me or hate me this is who i am'.
it sure does not help at all.
just think about it.
its just like not doing anything and not studying.
and the latter is like being oblivious in changing my attitude.
so so wont help.
so im adopting adidas'.
impossible is nothing.


i go for lessons with the best.
i study with the best.
im involved in making websites for the best.
i hang out with the best.
i play with the best.
i get help from the best.
i help the best.
i make a blogskin as a tribute for the best.
ultimately, i wanna be one of the best.
i have been a disgrace for them.
academically.
29 for L1R5 is just not the standard.
not even my standard.
so. i am going to work, work, and work.
its a little bit too late for that.
im left with only two weeks.
oh well.
at least i do something.


ok.
this mind blocks killing me.
if i try to blog any further, i'll get a migraine and my chemistry practical will be at risk.
so... im just gonna stop now.
this is the last entry for this month.
see ya'all again on 19 november.


peace out.

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