heyz.
been a while since i've REALLY blogged.
altho less thn a wk.
actually, e last time was exactly last wk.
wtv.

i haven been feeling too good these few days.
not physically, not mentally.
but deep inside.
so deep tht no one can realise it.
maybe just a few.
a few.
a few.

i was feeling quite good and happy before that.
[cant think of better adjectives.]
thn it had to end sooner thn i had expected.
the feeling of being social thrash.
thrash. rubbish. unwanted.
but thn again.
im used to it.
i was.
b4 e blissful feeling came by for a while and thn ran away like mad dogs.
even for a while, i had gotten used to tht happiness.
for a while.
thn things had to rot and turn bad.
now im feeling like shit again.
like how i always feel like.

shithead.
sometimes i wonder if this name was just a coincidence or whether i was destined to be associated with it and really match it.
coincidence?
nahh.
im thinking its e latter.

now this is what having a blog is all about.
letting ur mind speak and chill aft all e hustle and bustle.
at least thts wht i use it for.
dun tell me wht to use MY blog for.
now i feel a lil better.
but of course i wont be able to free myself frm this shitty feeling.
its a part of me.
thn again.
e feeling will go aft a good night's/morning's sleep/nap.
its standard.

haizz.
shit is shit.
wht can u do abt it?

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