Wednesday, October 04, 2006
hope u're doing fine without me.
u looked okay.
u looked like u were enjoying yourself without my company.
im not doing good without u though.
at all.
at first i thought it was okay.
"u never know how much someone means to u until u lose him/her."
i guess the highly overrated phrase has some truth in it.
but its not as if i've lost u or something.
tell me i havent.
how am i going to face u in GEM class later?
oh why do we always have to go through this phase?
this has been the worse so far.
i cant escape this abyss without the full fitness of my right ankle.
i NEED my right ankle.
without it, i cant run, i cant climb, i cant jump; i cant even walk around too much.
feel like resorting to verbal discharge.
but screaming in front of a crowd is simply a no-brainer.
finding a spot, along the way to or back from school, that is suitable for such uncivilised behaviour is hardly possible.
i feel so pathetic.
principal's dialogue later.
attire: white shirt + black pants.
and i take it with proper formal footwear.
or else i'll look funny with white shirt and black pants wearing ripcurl slippers or asics running shoes.
i dont know why i agreed to go for this dumb thing anyway.
i should have taken some time to get a replacement for myself instead of wasting my own time on it.
even if it was for the club.
maybe that is the only thing im good for.
doing something no one else would wanna do.
i couldnt be useful in any other way besides climbing for myself.
and making myself look stupid in whatever i do.
if u consider those useful things.
if not, im just plain useless.
thats it.
im climbing later.
by hook or by crook.
with 100% left ankle and 50% right ankle or left ankle alone; im still gonna climb.
maybe i dont understand what pain is but pain or not, passion always overwrites.
sucks to be me.
u looked okay.
u looked like u were enjoying yourself without my company.
im not doing good without u though.
at all.
at first i thought it was okay.
"u never know how much someone means to u until u lose him/her."
i guess the highly overrated phrase has some truth in it.
but its not as if i've lost u or something.
tell me i havent.
how am i going to face u in GEM class later?
oh why do we always have to go through this phase?
this has been the worse so far.
i cant escape this abyss without the full fitness of my right ankle.
i NEED my right ankle.
without it, i cant run, i cant climb, i cant jump; i cant even walk around too much.
feel like resorting to verbal discharge.
but screaming in front of a crowd is simply a no-brainer.
finding a spot, along the way to or back from school, that is suitable for such uncivilised behaviour is hardly possible.
i feel so pathetic.
principal's dialogue later.
attire: white shirt + black pants.
and i take it with proper formal footwear.
or else i'll look funny with white shirt and black pants wearing ripcurl slippers or asics running shoes.
i dont know why i agreed to go for this dumb thing anyway.
i should have taken some time to get a replacement for myself instead of wasting my own time on it.
even if it was for the club.
maybe that is the only thing im good for.
doing something no one else would wanna do.
i couldnt be useful in any other way besides climbing for myself.
and making myself look stupid in whatever i do.
if u consider those useful things.
if not, im just plain useless.
thats it.
im climbing later.
by hook or by crook.
with 100% left ankle and 50% right ankle or left ankle alone; im still gonna climb.
maybe i dont understand what pain is but pain or not, passion always overwrites.
sucks to be me.
++ posted by Hans @ 6:13 am |
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